~Shad0w.a.k.a.EDmUnD~

~Summary for 2009~..~Beginning of 2010~

2009-12-30T03:18:00.006+08:00

2009..it's been a wonderful year for me..

From schooling to working, for chatting to socializing , I've learnt A LOT and get A LOT of experience this year.. This is the year where I step out to the real world, knowing the world outside my view.. The best is making so many new friends from day to day..

The saddest thing..is that I been busy making friends outside, I have lost communication with the friends I have..my classmates, schoolmates.. Juz like yesterday..when at Desa Park City, seeing lots of friends from school but dunno how to communicate with them..feel so bad..

My greatest hope for 2010 is to able to have more close friends in class, have the last wonderful year schooling...just hope it's come true...

~shad0w@k@edmund~

2009-11-03T20:58:00.004+08:00

FINALLY~! I’m back!!!

Hahaha.. LOL~ Been lost for …let me see…6 months! Half a year..pasted!! =.=..

Hmmm…lots of things happened for the pass few months.. From homework to studies, from work to socializing, feeling myself have changed a lot, physically and most of all mentally..

1st.Money

Pocket money,according to dictionary.com, money for small current expenses..money which gave by parents to their children to use in school, but now in my case it’s vice versa. Since family having financial problem lately, money seems to be a thing to earn by myself. Not only I need to earn money for myself, I need to give some of my salary to my parents for family expends.. Been working since end of June, which means already working for 3months but guess how much money left. Need to pay for my tuition fees and school expenses. Before this, my parents would give around RM20 when I went out with friends for a movie or so but now.. Sigh..

Obviously, working will affect my alertness and performance in school and class and directly, my studies and grade, affected. Normally school over at 1.20pm, sometimes need to stay back for activities and duties. Reach home around 5pm, 6pm go to work. I’ll work until 9.30pm at night. Then have my dinner, have my bath, it’s already almost 11pm. Rush my homework, ready tomorrow’s school stuff, brush my teeth, ready for bed and look at the clock..1am…

But the good thing is, in return, I get freedom..my parents hardly stop me from going out now since I been studying and working so hard.. Often go out at night or midnight lately..which I find it’s quite nice.. =)

Just finish my final exam~!! YEAH~

Which mean I need to continue working already..T.T.. This will be the last month I will be working for this year..still considering wanna work next year anot since it’s SPM year..

Ok..I think that’s all for now… Wanna try update my blog more often cause starting to feel my blog’s empty.. =P

~shad0w@k@edmund~
3/11/09
9.18pm

Bullied...

2009-03-08T11:01:00.008+08:00

Cry...Being bullied,again..T.T..
Had marching in skul for sports day yesterday..And of course,st.john's marching...

Started to march from 8.30am..March,march,march...
After march for a few hours..Den take 5mins break which turn out to be almost 30mins rest,they started chit chating.. And some start to play..
And here is how it all started...

1st,1 of the gal's shoes kena take away and they throw from a point to another point.. So,I oso join in..Muahahahaa... And I'm the one who throw de most..Hehe..
But den.....she wanted revenge..T.T..
As I was walking around the field,suddenly I kena tangkap by "some" gals hoping to be raped,took out both of my shoes and throw from one end to another end of the field.. And the worse thing is I made a hole at my sock!!!..T.T...After being played by the gals,finally they gave back after the game have became bored...=.=|||...

Here comes the worst part..Guess what entertain them this time..
My underpants..OMA!!So damn unluckily la!!!This morning as I choose my underpants to wear,I choose the most eye catching colour..RED!! After chasing for my shoe sure the back of my shirt will come out rite??...T.T...At that time,all the gals laugh at me..Keep saying "Edmund wear red underpants!!!","Edmund wear red underpants!!!"..
Den suddenly..all of them count 1,2,3..."EDMUND WEAR RED UNDERPANTS!!!"
Pengangkap, kadet bomba, kadet remaja, pancaragam etc all of them were there..
AND ALL OF THEM WERE LOOKING AT ME!!!
So damn...embrassed...T.T...

Anyway..sudah biasa..习惯就好...=.=..

~shad0w@k@edmund~
8/3/09
4.30

Misai...

2009-03-02T21:40:00.005+08:00

OMA!!So embarassed today...T.T....

As usual..Wake up at 6am..Get ready for skul..
*Hornhorn*..Get onto my frenz car...
Reach skul...7.20am assembly start...

As the bloody principle who used up half an hour for his bloody speech,I saw a perfect staring at me for a long time.. Then walks towards me.. And I oredi knew,he is aiming at my hair,cause my hair is totaly too long.. So,I juz waiting for him to write down my name and dimerit me...

Closer and closer he gets.. As he reached,he said...your misai..very long,pls shave it..
OMA!! It was so damn embrassing!! Everyone that stood beside me stared at me and laugh...Wuwuu..T.T..
So..I bought my very 1st shave when my family went out for dinner..

My 1st RM1.80 shave..

Nth special about it.. Plus I made some cuts on my face!! Well,it is my 1st shave rite?? Will improve my shaving skill next time..=P..

~shad0w@k@edmund~
28/2/09
5.45am

Exam...

2009-02-21T20:05:00.002+08:00

Ok...
How long dint I update my blog oredi a???=.=|||
I oso dun dare to count..Lolz..

Next week exam loh~~Sitting for the 1st upper form exam..
Ppl say very hard la..Muz read la..
But...dunno why have no pressure or any motivation to push me to touch de books...

I was thinking..Since teacher said it is normal for fail the 1st exam...
So...what is the point of reading..Hahaha..
So..continue enjoy life ba~!!XD

~shad0w@k@edmund~
21/2/2009
8.37pm

Busy busy busy....

2009-01-17T15:35:00.004+08:00

Busy busy busy...

This is what I wanna talk about today..
I'm not talking about me being busy..but my lover..
Dunno why he just can't have a quiet butt...He have to, or I can use the word MUST, have things to do every single day...

Just wish could have more time with me..

~Let Me Let Go~

I thought it was over, baby
We said our goodbyes
But I can't go a day without your face
Goin' through my mind

In fact, not a single minute
Passes without you in it
Your voice, your touch, memories of your love
Are with me all of the time

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul
Let me let go

I talked to you the other day
Looks like you make your escape
You put us behind, no matter how I try
I can't do the same

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
It just isn't right
I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road
Let me let go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know, yeah
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul
Let me let go

Lights of this strange city are shinin'
But they don't hold no fascination for me
I try to find the bright side, baby
But everywhere I look
Everywhere I turn
You're all I see

Let me, let me let go, baby, won't you
Let me let go
It just isn't right
I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road
Oh, let me let go, darlin', won't you
I just gotta know
If this is for the best
Why are you still in my heart
Yeah, you're still in my soul, let me let go

Let me let go, let me let go

Tired skuls day...=.="

2009-01-07T17:01:00.003+08:00

OMA!!Juz the 1st few days of skul and I'm oredi so so tired..=.="..Rushing for the orentation day till siao~!!

Luckily able to get into the science class..AND oso luckily I'm not in the science 1st class..The people in the 1st class owaz very stingy and proud,owaz wanna get the 1st place so they dun share their knowledge with other ppl..That's what I observed la..Really thanks god I'm in the 2nd class..Aleluya..=X..

And once again,I'm have a post in class again..T.T..Wuwuuu...Been having post since form 2 le..But at least this time the post doesn't have to have much to do..Oh,haven say my post..Paise..Hehe..My post is bendahari loh..All $$$$$$..Haha..

Not only this..AND my bdn beruniform oso a....T.T..Wuwuuuu..Oso bendahari..All bling bling $$money$$..Only can touch cant take..Must tahan..LOL~!!

Ok la..Very tired le..Gona have my cat nap loh~!!Cya in the next post loh...
Sayonana~XD

~Shad0w_EDmUnD~
7/1/09
6.37pm

~I'M BACK~

2008-11-24T07:35:00.004+08:00

Yeah!!End of suffering!!PMR is over!Actually b4 PMR I didn't really study so what's end of suffering am I talking about?LOL.Anyway,still happy that PMR is over.Haha.Now just have to wait for my doom's day,the day when PMR result is out..x_x..

Been 3months since the last post.OMA!And the worse part is I forgot where to make a new post.Haha.I searched the link for almost 30mins and finally,stupid me,I found out that forgot to sign in.Laugh at myself.Haha..After many persuasion from the only person tat reads my profile,I finally touch my blog again..You happy now?I know you reading this..haha..

So many things happened for the passed 3months.But I won't type it all out because it will gonna take forever..Okok I admit..I just too lazy to type..Hehe..This is my blog anyway..Haha..The thing happened that is most important to me is that I finally found my true love~!!YEAH!!This time it's not gonna be just a 1 week relationship,puppy love like the last post I write about my 1st love..Besides,we already be together for almost 4 months and our love is still holding strong!!Hehe..Been having some difficulties with him these few weeks but it doesn't effect my love for him..Love you my dear~!!!

It's already end of November..The YEH(year end holiday)2008..One 1 word I can say about this holiday..BORING~~~zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZ...So damn boring..I just sitting all day at home doing things that waste my time..These days I just downloading show,movies,sitcoms..I know you'll say "Y don't you go find a job?"..2 reasons..

1.My parents working..My sis having her SPM..So I'm the only one who able to take care the house and my little bro..

2.My lover is coming to KL in this holiday(from Penang) and the time is not confirm..So if I take a job it's impossible for me to take one or two days off to go out wit him right?I'll just ending up being fired..

So I'll waiting the time pass....Tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock ................Now I suddenly miss the days that I worried about the PMR..I used my time wisely on my study but not waste my time like what's happening now..Haizzz... Now I'm oredi addicted to the sitcom,24..There are 6season and I just finish the 1st season..So there are 5 more to go..Gambate me..Haha..

Ok..It's almost 8am and I haven sleep..OMA!!But I still don't feel tired..So I just continue my show now..Later I try to have some sleep..Haha..Bye~

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

24/11/2008 7.40am

Messy house...

2008-08-31T19:14:00.017+08:00

OMG~!!2 weeks passed so slow..So hope that PMR is tomorrow so I'm able to enjoy my life again and stay away from the books!Haiz..Haven updated my blog for almost 2 weeks..So so busy..

Today my family and I clean up our house since it is so messy..Except my sister..She went for the St.John duty at Dataran Merdeka..Talking about my sister,she is the most untidiest among my family..For example,you able to find clumps of dust in her bed..And guess what she did?NOTHING!!Can't imagine how she sleeps at night..In stead she moves into my room to sleep!Even worse,my room is now starting to become messy!#$%^&*$#@!! Let me show you some pics under her bed..It is not that messy as it was because my sis already started to clean up before I able to take the pics..

As you can see there are paper,coins.hangers,books etc etc..The thing that can't see in this pics(my sis took) them are a scientific calculator and a long lost handphone!!=.="..Maybe I'll make the 2nd of the movie "Don't look under your bed"..

So where the bed went?Downstair..
How it get down there?Someone took it downstair..
And guess who bring it?ME~!!

You can see a lot of hair sticking at the sides of the bed..Imagine you are the one who touch those long,filthy hair!It's not like I want to..My dad says,:"She is a girl la..Can't move this heavy thing..So help her~"..Haiz..How can I say NO?He's the king of the house..Therefore,I think I need a dozen bottle of dettol to wash my hands..T-T..

I so regret to help her..It's because last time when I tidy up my whole room that took 2 days,she didn't even lend a hand,not even a second!And now she sleeps in my room?!For god damn it!I tried to kick her out of my room but mom says that the air conditioner in her room spoilt,so let her sleep in my room..OMG!Even my mom stands by her side..I am so angry very day and night watching her taking over my room!Now I don't have my own room,own privacy to do anything..Especially to do the 'THING'(What boys always do)..Haiz..Now everytime when someone calls me I need to find a place to talk even though I have my room!I'm so sick of this I took my mattress,my pillows,my books,bring it into the living downstair, find a conner and make a space of my own and I sleep there everynight..And guess what..NOONE BOTHERS..And the worst part is what my sister said!!It cuts my heart so deep..Guess what she says?

"Eh,Edmund..Finally I kick out of your room.."!!@#*&^$**()(%&^#$)!@#_(*#(&%^(*()@)*$_!@(endless)....!!Shit her!!

Tell what happened today..Since my sis went to the Merdeka duty,she is a bit tired..After vaccuming her room,she went to MY ROOM to sleep while all of my family were busying cleaning up the house..My mom saw her sleeping and thought of helping her to arrange her book for her and get a 'thank you' from my sis..So she clean up my sis room for her..I know my mom gonna regret this because my sis gonna scold her for arranging the book as I know my sister attitude but my mom didn't listen and continues to tidy..As I expected,as my sis woke up from her beauty sleep and saw what happened to her room,she shouted,cry and SCOLDED MOM FOR HELPING HER!!"Please mom don't MESS UP my room!!"She continues shouting and crying like a mad person until my mom can't stand it and shouted back at her..

Guess I should change the title to "My sister"..Anyone can volunter to kill her?

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

Having a bad week..

2008-08-18T10:47:00.001+08:00

FINALLY~!!Trial exam over le...Yeah!!BUT...PMR still around the conner...T-T..Sobs...+ have been sick for the whole week..Having cold,flu,cough and sore throat and the same time..Haiz..But still need to attend to school for the trial exam since it is unable retake the exam if you absent..So I have to pull myself up everyday to go to school..And the worst thing is have to go to school for my St.John class tomorrow and I'm gonna teach..But look at the bright side,gonna have holiday for the next whole week!!So can sleep as long as I can..XD

In the chinese calendar,2 days ago was the ghost festival day..And so 'fortunately',one of them came to visit..><"..It happen at around 11.45pm,almost 12am..Wanna take things that I left in my dad's car..I opened my house door and and was looking for the car key in the branch of keys while walking towards the car across..After I found the key,as I pulled my head up looking at the car,I saw an image,a glowing face staring at me..It was half transparent but the eyes and the mouth was glowing..I was so shocked!!As we know ghost don't like to be seen and will keep track those that saw them..So I just turn my head back calmly,pretended that I saw nothing and walked back into my house..I locked the door,ran upstairs into my room,lay down on my bed in my room and was trying to forget everything and what I saw..OMG!!I really being cursed??

The cursed
~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

分手快乐,祝你快乐,希望你能找到更好的...

2008-08-16T01:49:00.006+08:00

Haiz..Broke up with my bf 2 days ago..Although it hurts him and me, I have made up my mind to break up with him because of some reasons..

1. He is living in Singapore while I live in KL..We live too far apart so we can hardly meet..Not even 5 times a years..

2. We can hardly communicate..We live in 2 different countries..Our culture and the way of live are much different..We are 2 different type of person and our personality are diffenrent..Everytime when we call each other,there sure will be a long silent..Therefore we can hardly talk..

3. Since we living in the diffent country,calling him or he calling me is costing us a lot of money..We are so young..Where can we get money to call each other if we keep calling each other for so long?It even cost almost 20sen per sms..

Therefore,I have decided to break up with him..It's for his and my good..Although we're not lovers,we are still friends and like a brother to me..I also hope that I no need to make the move but I dun wanna hurt him more when our love is much deeper..I'm so sorry my dear..

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

You gonna be my love,my valentine~

2008-08-11T01:21:00.009+08:00

I'm not talking about the song 'Valentine',but it's about my dear..^^..OMG!!I love my dear so,so much~Feel so lucky to have my dear by my side..We know each other for about 1 week now..We contact each other by sms,calls and msn everyday to show our love..But the bad part is,my dear's from Singapore..T-T..So we can hardly meet each other..But I believe although we are far apart,our heart will always be close together..always..I love you my dear~

I really felt sorry for my love..My dear could have a twin but something went wrong when delivering..Only suscess to deliver my dear but failed to deliver the other..My dear could have been gone that time..but luckily,my love still with me right now..this moment..this second..Feels like having an angle by my side..I don't want to lose you..God gave you a life,a chance to live in this world..Therefore,my dear,I'll love you with all of my heart!!You'll never be replaced!!Lolz..Happy tears start flowing down my cheeks..So happy to have you as my lover..I'll love you 4ever!!MUACKZZZ...

Yesterday was my dear's birthday..Wish could be at my dear's side celebrate b'day..Haiz..And my dear told me that only 2 person that celebrated birthday with my dear,that's my dear's god sister and of course..m3..After that my dear's friend said wanna celebrate with him today in a park(forgot the name)..but after some time then they say dun wan..What a friend..I called him and talk to him the whole day that used up almost RM50 of my saving(money fly fly away),but it's really worth it..=D..Able to know,understand more about my dear..

Conclusion..I LOVE YOU MY DEAR!!You'll never be replaced!!
It's getting really late and also gonna sit for my math exam later..So better have a rest now..And my dear gonna call me at 4:30am..Gosh..So little time to rest..Therefore..Nitez guys..Sleep tight..

Adious..
~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

Valentine

If there were no words

No way to speak

I would still hear you

If there were no tears

No way to feel inside

I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart until the end of time

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine.

All of my life

I have been waiting for

All you give to me

You've opened my eyes

And shown me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before

In my dreams

I couldn't love you more

I will give you my heart

Until the end of time

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine

Even if romance ran out of rhyme

You would still have my heart until the end of time

'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine

You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

So tired...

2008-08-10T05:43:00.003+08:00

Getting tired and stressed these days..Having trial exam now..Well I'm didn't prepare much for the exam and the worst part is the rushing in of the responsible that I'm having now and going to have..Ok..Let me tell you the responsible the I'm having now..

1st:As the monitor of my class,very thing my classmate do is related to me..Although it's the 2nd best class,the way they act are just like the bottom 2nd class in my form(even teacherS say so)..And whenever they do something wrong,who's the one being nagged?Who's the one the teacher talk?ME!

"See their bags,not even more than 10 books..So what they're learning in school?"

"Your class always either late or don't hand in the homework..Can't you as the monitor call them to hand in the homework in time?"

"Look at the notice board in your class..So empty..Why can't you call the AJK Keceriaan fill up the empty space?So sorry..You're the monitor of the class..So I have to cane you..'Stroke'..'Stroke'.."

Etc..etc..etc..etc.....It's just like I'm the one who's doing the wrong thing or didn't take any action..Haiz..

2nd:Treasurer..The person who controls all the money flowing in and out of the club(St.John Ambulance)..Each cent counts..And there are so many moeny to collect..So it's so so dangerous..

3nd:Next year we are having a join camp(kem gabungan)..There's 4 club joining to have a camp..And guess what post I got..QM..QM is the one who take care all the things needed when camp..There are so many things when camp is going on so have to 'babysit' all those thing..Boring right?..And this post normally have to guard around the classroom and field where the participants sleep at night..AT NIGHT!!And if you read the previous post...OMG..Must pray before going for the camp..><".. Also need to bring along some praying sticks too..I think..

4th:Lastly,the most important one..PMR..Having hard time to study cause have to do my duties in class and also outside the classroom..Sigh..Dunno how's my result gonna be..Believe it'll be full of flying red colour..><"..

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

Old pals..Old friends...

2008-08-02T01:23:00.005+08:00

Haiz..Oh my old pals,my friends..Why have you all became?Why do you join those groups..?Gangster..Samseng..You were such a model in our class,cheerful,active,intelligent..Even the teacher praise you..

But now what have you become?Being dispel from school..No aims,smoke,drink...Blur,dark,blank future...It's so,so,very,really hurts for your friends like me watch you what you have become..It's really hard to believe that I knew you before..I can't believe my eyes when I first saw you after being apart for just 3 years..When you pass by me,I can hardly see the 'you',recognize you anymore..And I can't just give a cold shoulder,so I just give a sad "Hi.." to you..

Lots of ear rings,long hair,ripped shirts,trousers with holes..What have you become?!Haiz..It's just hurt so deep for watching you taking the wrong choice ,the worng path you walk..Just hope there's a light in the end of the path or it'll just be a DEAD END...Only god knows..

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

SOMETHING PASSED BY ME..@@"

2008-07-30T02:54:00.004+08:00

It was about 4 days ago..Late midnight..I was chatting with Zach till he sleeps..So I just left my webcam on and put the window on the upper right of my screen..Then something happened...

While I was surfing the web aimlessly,suddenly I saw something passed by behind me through the webcam..@@".. It was a dark,human like shadow that was moving quite fast..I only able to get a glance at the SOMETHING..For not thinking anything that's stupid, I said to myself,"You getting sleepy, even your sight are getting dark"..Not wasting anytime,I quickly plugged out the webcam USB, slammed the laptop and jump into my bed with my blanket over my head..I kept the lights on for the whole night till the sun was completely rose..

On the day afternoon, I thought back what happened..I still able to get the image of the dark shadow..It was quite real that it was SOMETHING..So I just assume that he/she just wanna 'tumpang lalu'..I didn't disturb him/her so why do I worrying about?Right?

Right??><"
It's getting really late now..Getting sleepy and eyes are watery + blury..Dun wanna see SOMETHING again with my naked eyes..@@.. So nitez guys...

The scared to death,
~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

Where have my speaking skill gone..?

2008-07-30T02:26:00.006+08:00

Oh my!My speaking skills are getting worst now!Where have my speaking skills gone?I can't speak fluently like I use to be..Can't say most of my sentences in one go..E.g.'I want..want..want to go to the..the..erm..toilet awhile..'Oh god!!Feeling so odd speaking like this..><"

While maybe one of the reason I'm speaking like a weirdo is I've been influence by me little bro..Since he was small he speaks unfluently..I've try to prevent to be influence by him but it seems like it didn't work out..

While I can't blame all on my bro..Maybe it's not my bro which changing me,but myself..Been playing too much com and watching too much TVs lately that lead to lack of mental exercise..Also lack of reading lately..Perhaps this is the reason why my talking is getting worse..While I really need to start to talk and read a lot to practice and get back my fluency again..Just hope it'll work..

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

Exams...

2008-07-30T01:11:00.007+08:00

Having a very sharp pain in my head this morning..Just like a nuclear bomb exploed in my brain..So I'm force to skip school and that worrys me the most cause the following week will be my PMR trial exam!!And I'm still laying down doing nth..Not even had a revision on my form 1 & form 2 books..The angle in me keep shouting,"START YOUR REVISION NOW", but I've took over by my laziness, the devil in me..

But no matter how much I try to focus on my studies at home, the devils outside my room keep calling,possessing me,which are the TVs and the laptop..With the help of my laziness,I always end up in front of them..><"..I've talked to myself and said I'll study but I'm just a NATO(no action,talk only).As time pass,my devil getting stronger,taking over my body,possessing my angle,just like the novel I had read this year "Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde".It feels like even my angle is cursing me now..So just have to wait when will god bless me again..

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~

Blogging...??

2008-07-28T20:16:00.017+08:00

Blogging..hem..Heard it from movies, friends,classmates, tuition friends but the 1st word that comes into my head was.."BORING!!"While after looking some blogs,find it quite interesting looking into someone life..So here I am,my own blog..

While I'm quite speechless..I just started to know what's blog like about 2 weeks ago..It's like a diary with unlimited pages..The different is everyone can see it..Haha..While it getting late and need to go school tmr..I'll also try to write more the next time..

~EDmUnD@k@bUdDY~